After my first post on Sunday, I had a friend contact me regarding what I am going through. We had talked about our similar struggle before and it was nice to know I am not the only woman in this world going through this. I think maybe someone who had no clue what I looked like or what my life looked like might think (based on reading this blog) that I was extremely overweight, had an unorganized and messy house (or wasn't even motivated enough to own a house?) and just had a life that looked like a total mess. Nothing could be further from the truth. Both of us ladies look pretty put together from the outside, it's just this struggle that lies deep within that we KNOW we need support and encouragement to work through. And, unfortunately, this will probably be a lifetime battle - which I think is the most depressing thing to me.
This friend started talking about how certain foods make her feel, etc. and based on that comment and a quiz I took in a new Jillian's Michael's book the day before, I realized I had NO clue how certain foods made me FEEL. The only thing I did know was that a big, greasy meal at lunchtime made the afternoon drag and make me feel like I wanted to curl up in my bed and sleep the day away. Since gaining that knowledge, I have kept myself away from that sort of food. Ding, ding, ding!! Why hadn't I thought about this before?
detox published by Dr. Mao a little while ago. It seems legit.. no chemicals. Just some supplements which are all natural, some broth made of all kinds of wonderful vegetables, juiced veggies and fruits, and there is actually some real food (although steel cut oats without sugar is gonna be hard to choke down.. ok, what am I saying, it ALL will be!).
After the detox will be a meal plan similar to the one suggested for me, the fast oxidizer, in Jillian's book I mentioned above. Although, since I despise diets and someone telling me what I need to eat, I will probably tweak it here and there. I mean, no one can make me eat a hard boiled egg! Eww!
However, I think the the biggest element of this whole thing I am subjecting myself to is the support I am going to get from my friend. Like I said, nothing is better than working together with people who have the same issues and believe in the same way to work through them. My goal is to not only look like the picture of me on the right (at my lightest since early highschool!), which was taken in approximately May 2008, but also to just feel better, have more energy and break free from being so flippin' focused on food!
Oh, and for those following Baylie's quest to health as well.. she now is the proud owner of a laser pointer which is helping her get her exercise in on rainy days :)