A thought just popped into my head tonight and I figured I'd post it here and see what kind of feedback I'd get.
Yet another person from my past has added me on Facebook. No, not an old boyfriend or anything with significant personal history, but just someone I knew for a few years on a casual basis.
Said person I think had a few kids with their then wife and it looks like they are now divorced and he has moved on to someone new. Whatever. It happens.
However, my thought went something like this:
Poor woman carried his kids in her body. Ravaged her body by stretching it this way and that. Most likely gained weight that she could never seem to lose. Basically, not the same woman physically that he fell in love with.
Now she's gone and he is free to move on to someone who has never had kids and it's like starting over.
And the old wife is left with her body and probably a healthy dose of self-esteem issues.
Now, if the person who made me think these thoughts is reading this and you think "Wow, she is talking about me and she TOTALLY has it wrong", well, I don't know your story... just telling you where my thoughts led me. For all I know she cheated on you and you are the sole provider to your kids now because she is living on the streets trying to support her drug habit - or something like that.
Anyway, I think this just hit a big fear button in me. I am terrified of giving my all to someone and in the end having them take off - only to leave me with possibly nothing... or at least a very beat up version of what I once was.
Something to think on for sure.
Thoughts? I don't care if I don't know you.... if you are reading this, any comment is appreciated. Has anyone else thought about this? Or am I alone in this fear?