Halfway through 2011

Last night I wasn't tired. I mean, I was, but I couldn't get myself to crawl into bed. Sort like how when I try to drink coffee to stay awake - I am still tired, still want to sleep, but just can't. Therefore, I don't drink coffee to stay awake. Even in college I never stayed up late studying. There was no way I was going to sacrifice sleep just to cram in a little more information. Luckily, somehow I did well.

Anyway, so I couldn't sleep and I started looking through old blog posts of mine. It's funny the roller coaster I've been on with this whole trying to be healthy (ok, ok, get skinny) thing. I've jumped from one bandwagon to another faster than most Sacramento Kings fans.

Then I realized, I am in a very good place. Like, super muy bueno.

You might remember I posted my goals for 2011. Not resolutions, mind you, but actual goals. I guess in my head it makes more sense to work towards achieving something than to resolve to do something. Maybe the same thing, but I never said I really made a lot of sense.

Re-reading this post of mind blew me away - I'm kicking some serious butt!

My first goal was some sort of physical feat. At the time I was beginning training for a 1/2 marathon (my third attempt) and was possibly attending a trip to Yosemite to hike Half Dome near the end of June (yup, this month). I didn't have much faith in doing the 1/2 at that time, but I did it. And next Sunday I leave for Yosemite. As long as the Half Dome hiking gods are with me, I'll scale that one too.

And on to my second goal. I will be perfectly honest and say I thought the chances of this one happening was about as good as The Bachelorette deciding not to put the one jerk on the show that makes us all scream. I wanted to get over my sugar addiction. I won't say at this point that I have completely conquered this one - I mean, how do you test yourself with that sort of thing? Maybe lock me in a room full of cupcakes for 4 hours and see if I can resist? I do, however, feel I am on the right track. I've had some sugar since starting Paleo. Vanilla lattes are a treat, there was agave syrups in my margarita, honey for my salad dressing and some dark chocolate here and there. But NO awesomely yummy baked goods that make me weak in my knees.

Hello doughnuts, brownies and Icing On the Cupcake's. I'm talking to you.

I'm still working on my last goal of becoming more like the person I would want to hang out with and be in a relationship with. I also want to work on my current friendships and build new ones. Do you know how hard it is to make friends at this age? We just get more stubborn with age it seems. More unwilling to let people in our bubble. *sigh* Trying to let go.

Weird. Trying to reign in the eating but let go with the social aspect of life. It's so much easier the other way around.